Frustration....

How free are we really in this country? I'd say not very. Kevin and I have been learning this for the past two weeks as we are struggling to get any help. A person who has put in three years at a local company cannot get any assistance anywhere. Kevin lost his job a while ago, it took forever to get his unemployment, we can't really afford groceries but we get them before we pay bills, we can't get any health care because everyone wants cash first, can't go see the doctor because he needs to know we are going to get Medicaid or wants $1370, can't get on Medicaid because we won't vaccinate Joel or Ephraim, can only get the religious exemption for vaccinations if our pastor writes a letter saying that is what the church believes and it's not, we are about to lose our house, probably going to lose our children to CPS, and Kevin is probably going to end up in jail because we cannot prove anything...then Joel, Ephraim, and I will be homeless...if I still have Joel and Ephraim! With everything coming to a head all at once it is stressing me out. I don't think I would be quite as stressed if I wasn't 38 weeks pregnant with nowhere but home, without a care provider, to deliver my child. The only option at this point is to go to the ER where we will not be treated well and will probably be pushed into a terrible delivery with more threats to call CPS because we will not "comply". I know this is a lot of word vomit...but it's making me feel a little bit better. The only thing that gives me comfort right now is that there is a God in Heaven who is looking down on us and will not put us through what we cannot handle! I haven't cried yet so it must not be too much...however if I lose my husband and children that would be the last straw for me, I would probably end up in the nut house. I can't believe that this is what people wanted to accomplish. Who in their right minds wants to ruin other people's lives? Oh yeah, that's right, manipulative, conniving monsters. It's just so sad that people get "high" like that...